Exhausted.

It's been 9 days since I posted here.  I'm not doing very well at one a day.  Oh well, I will keep trying.  I am totally and completely exhausted and glad there's no school or work tomorrow for us.  I will relax tonight in a clean house and welcome my best friend & her kids here tomorrow.  Yay for kids distracting each other so we can hang out and relax some more.

Bunco.

Just got home from monthly Bunco night.  So much fun hanging out with the ladies.  I love talking to Nastya about Ukraine and hearing her stories, and hearing about Kara's new guy and how happy she is.  What a great night.

News.

My friend starts chemo this week. I have not cried in a while, but I am still thinking about her all the time.  The doctors seem fairly optimistic about treatment. Now it is time to pray.

Grownup.

Yesterday, I walked the halls of an elementary school full of kids, and it felt completely surreal that I have a kid in school.  Today, I sat with the mom of a friend I've known for 20 years, and talked and thought about how I've crossed this barrier from being one of her friends kids to maybe sort of being her friend too.  Growing up is weird.

FUCK.

Stage 4. I can't breathe.

Women.

A few hours with friends can be so nourishing to the soul.  When I'm stressed or feeling lonely, spending time with the women in my life who support me and get me makes such a world of difference.

Cancer.

My friend has cancer. We are waiting to find out if it's stage 3 or 4. I can't stop thinking about her.

update: It's not in her bones. Thank God. Now, more scans to check some spots in lungs & liver. This endless thought continues in prayer.